So one of the last things my mom told me before leaving me for my first semester at college was that my grandpa, her dad, was an addicted alcoholic. Talk about a great time to talk about family issues, huh? As I heard her say that, I knew she was only trying to scare me and build a foundation against drinking. Its something I’ll never forget.
I have had the great pleasure in listening to one, if not THE, best radio show ever; LOVELINE. As the name mentions there is a lot of sex related questions (which in their own right scared me from a lot of stuff), but there is also a tremendous amount of talk about drugs, drug abuse, and addictions. My main man, Dr. Drew (yes the same Doc from Sober House and Celebrity Rehab), is at the tip of the spear in drug addiction rehab. I have learned SOOOOOO much from him and the show about AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) and all that is involved in rehab.
I have come to truly admire the AA and rehab process, volunteers, and the whole thing.
Hearing, thinking, and being thrilled by the addict’s treatment, has lead me to think about my own life. As I mentioned my grandpa was an addict and addiction can/does run in the family. I can tell you right now, that I have addictions. Not to drugs, alcohol, or other chemicals; and honestly, I am SOOO thankful that I’m not addicted to them.
But it clicked with me tonight, I think I’m addicted to ANGER. Can I be addicted to anger? Do I get a buzz or high from anger? Well not really.
Just sometimes I feel like I need to be angry. Sometimes I feel like I have to hit something, good thing I have a punching bag in my basement!
One of the elements of an addiction is having a trigger. Oh boy, do I have triggers to my anger! I can’t count them on one hand, but here we go:
1. When my parents drill my little brother because they don’t want to or don’t know how to do something.
2. Stupid People- This is a BIG category. There are WAY too many ignorant, stupid, idiot, and just dumb people out there. For example, I heard of this lady today who has lived on Section 8 housing her entire life and thinks that she deserves a Plasma TV from the government, just because she’s poor doesn’t mean she shouldn’t be denied life’s luxuries… STUPID!!!
3. Bad Drivers- This is kind of a sub-point of the one above.
4. People who think their dogs are better than any human being.
5. People who think that the “rules” don’t apply to them or think that their time is more valuable than mine.
6. People who cut in line, flat out.
7. Most all politicians, especially those who don’t do a lick of anything for their countrymen.
8. Roommates who don’t clean up after themselves.
9. People who don’t come through on their end of an agreement, a lazy team member, or someone who doesn’t do their portion of work.
10. People who don’t take the serious stuff seriously.
11. And so much more.
So I don’t know, maybe I’ll try to go to an AA meeting. Maybe I’ll just realize these are some of my triggers and not to get involved with people like the above. I should probably start with some counseling or going to see a psychologist….
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